Too much for you

There are things that hurt me to face

The fact that you opened the door

On my inner life

And did not like what you saw

Of the trauma I have endured

And after this opening

Offered only silence

The hurting hollow of an empty screen

That left me reeling

At the outset I said to you

I am not made for this remote technology

But what else can we do

When you are half a world

Away fighting enemies of the State

Should have I just trusted myself

Or instead read my reticence as a fear

That needed to be over driven?

There are only many questions here

Echoing through absence you left me with

After offering me the Moon

I was honest and said

Its not easy for me to trust

Because everyone I have ever known has left

Me amd family

And I’ve watched ashes turn to dust

So now you see I am not a safe bet

You are long gone

And I must work hard to remember

I am not abandoned

I have only been left

I took the risk of honesty

And who I was

Was too much for you to take