A Way Back

I would love to believe

That dreams do not end

That there is a way back

To that lost kingdom of long ago

That I stumbled on like Parsifal

I would love to believe that the way back

Will not be barred

By brambles thickets and thorns

That tear my flesh

Even if that is what I project

As the result of allowing a heart

So full of wanting to beat so fast in anticipation of joy

And manufacture only threat

So long ago I believed that love was not for me

Nor happiness

Was destruction not just waiting

Around the corner

If I longed or wished or wanted too much?

But maybe these thoughts were just my defence

Against the vulnerability of a heart opened to

The fullness of foreboding joy

That floods the banks of my being

Awakening me to

My deepest longing

My deepest desire

My richest imagining