Weary

Weary of the trying

I finally lay my burden down

Breathlessness is the result

Of this bracing in my chest

That forms from the struggle

To reach beyond the place

Where I am just flowing out from my liquid centre

And instead extending myself into places

That do not truly welcome

That intrusion

So what is it

That is really driving me

It may be hard to

Surrender

To finally say I give it up

This need to play a part and to be seen

Which exhausts me with every false breath

Leaving my chest hollow with unmet need

For life was never meant to be

This kind of empty

Having to always try and fail

Surrender instead

May lead me back

To a flowing river

That issues from an underground spring

That so long ago became dammed

So now

Weary with the trying

I finally lay my burden down

Undo my brace

And set myself free