When I emerged

When I emerged into the harsh light of day

In this the over world

That underworld had receeded

That lay its claim

Forever upon my soul

In nights of tears and wanting

So that now in this the land of our migration

After a hundred years of separation

I feel as though I am being broken open

Strand by strand

In this crucible of an awakening

That could only lead me back

To the past

To that underworld

Where the lost mother was buried

When we left here

Just over 19 years ago

I dreamed of ancient green lands

Drenched in blood

With cow carcasses littered there

And in another dream

The young masculine lay

Castrated

As your family surrounded him

And I was asked to perform a healing with my hands

Which I feel now was a kind of benediction

How is it that our Self in dreams

Can see further

Informed as it is by the underground vision

Of a future in becoming?

So that now as I feel again

The Underworld calling

My soul aches with the recognition of how far from home

We strayed

And as the lion roars again

I feel the ancestors calling

Your work here is only nearly done

It is time to come home