A Brighter Day : Today I did connect.

Today I did connect with three people and so today I feel so grateful.  If I share the tough times on here, it is also important to share the happy, uplifting times too, the times when things go right and gel.. if only for moments.

I have connected on a dating app with someone who seems genuine after a few attempts with guys who tried to push me around.  I am taking this very slowly as I don’t want to open up too soon to the wrong person which is what happened to me back in 2007 with my ex.  And so I am establishing a rapport first with someone who is showing me patience and respect BEFORE we decide to meet.

I also connected with a sweet young woman I first met at the dog park and later at the oval where I take Jazzie on the days I don’t want to go to park but for a longer walk.  She is very close to finishing her thesis in environmental science and I have told her about my blog.  She shared today about her Mum’s anxiety and how she had to get counselling so as not to be overly hooked into a care taker role which was causing her stomach problems.  Wow, this is exactly what I have gone through.  She shared the things that worked for her, exercise and engaging in other activities that drew her towards healthier people.

Jasper and I then went to our favourite bakery for a coffee and we connected with an older man who loved dogs and a small family who had left the spaniel at home in the country town not far from where I live to go to the movies….So that was a lot of connection for today.

I still felt tears falling though as I thought of my sister and my Dad and my Mum.  That little shopping arcade we sit near when we have our coffee is very close to the grocery store my Dad owned in the late 1960s when I was a child.  I used to dance up and down the counter when it was closed and sing my favourite Nancy Sinatra song “these boots are made for walking”.   Was that prophetic in some way of what I would go through in later life or somehow connected with the way Mum often wore the pants at home walking over everyone?….. Not sure.

Never the less I felt some gratitude today towards my parents for things they did give, without dismissing or minimising the pain of what they were not able to give to me.  So today felt balanced in that way.  I then checked out my blog and my heart was warmed by all the love and kindness from beautiful followers I value, Rayne, Sorryless and Many of Us 1980… I love you guys so much even though we have never met.  I am not sure if you know how much your comments and ongoing support sustain me and make my life brighter… so bless you and thank you, friends.   As well as to all those others who also read and comment.

All in all today is shaping up well.  It’s a public holiday in my home town so I am going to make some nice lunch soon and relax before going back out for a pedicure this afternoon.  Its a great source of comfort to me that the tough days don’t always last as long as they used to now and that a brighter day can follow a darker one.  For that I am so so so enormously grateful.