Truth denied

You said to me

Stay

I will make for you a place of belonging

Here inside my heart

A space where no harm will befall you

Or when it does

I will protect you

But I had already fallen

After my energy field opened to embrace yours

And I spun

Loosing balance

And hit my head

I could not run then

Although my body tried to say

Maybe he is lying

And this place is not safe

And even when your monologues

Revealed you had a heart of stone

In the face of others denying you your want

And I wanted to escape

Another part of me feared so much

Being all alone

Again

And so I let you in and opened my heart

Only to have it

Savaged in the end

So really who is to blame

When it was I

Who failed to protect myself

I hoped for learning

For us both

Believing you could change

But when they came

The lessons were harsh

And spun me out of shape

Echoes now

As we move closer to autumn

Which holds feeling reminders

Of the early days of our love

And the last

The painful

Aftermath

In which I struggled to connect

While drawing danger close again

Dare I open this door

Which I had to close to men

Again

Is my heart strong enough

To act on what it knows

But so often denies

The truth of?