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Too extreme?

Don’t tell me I am too sensitive

Don’t you dare tell me I am too extreme

When you have never lived my life

Or witnessed the things I have seen

Don’t try to tell me I’ve got it wrong

When all of my life I had to buckle under

The pressure of ‘do not be’

Don’t give me your opinion on why certain people can’t cope

To be honest I don’ t give a fuck

And to be honest I wish you had never spoke

Its not my place to comment on your life

Unless you asked for my advice

And even then I would be wary

When I have never had to fight your fight

I’ve struggled for so many years to live the best I could

In conditions where I was so often misunderstood

If you think this is all just whinging

I honestly wish you would

Disappear and leave me all alone

In my personal neigbourhood

I’ve travelled too far now

To stray close from home

So let me be

And let me breathe

In this life I chose

Free to be passionate

And self disclose

Leave me alone if you dont like what I say

Close the door and walk away

For your poison barbs lodged in my soul

Make me bleed

In ways you will never know

And without the care of those who love me and understand

I would be forever a lost stranger in an even more lost land

And that is not a place I choose to live

Certain things are just impossible

To allow or to forgive

So please dont ask that of me

Anymore

I have the right to express

To vent

And to explore

Who I really am

And what really happened to me!

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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15 thoughts on “Too extreme?”

    1. If I can be a voice for others whose power has been stolen I will. We need to speak up. People are dying every day when they face the lack of care. I saw two sisters try to take their life due to this kind of thing.. being emotionally abandoned. I hope reading this helps you in some small way. ❤

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      1. It does help me. Thank you. Emotionally abandoned is exactly how I feel. And that is worse than the physical. The physical sucks because everyone knows my husband is away and i cannot make it to the grocery store or to pick up anything that we may need or get us to the doctor. No one asks. They just text me to vent about their husband being out drinking or their whatever and i hear it and i know people have their own stuff but just once in awhile it is just nice to know that i am on someone’s mind.
        Thanks for being a voice. I seem to have lost mine lately

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      2. Sorry not to respond back to this for so long. I went off line to make dinner. I really feel for you in that circumstance. I honestly think people just live so much in their own heads it doesnt occur to them what you might need and being in your situation really you would hope they would. I really dont know what else to say … you are in a very tough situation. Sending you a huge hug <3.

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      1. I am, thank you.

        Yanno, I didn’t like myself for a long time. And then when I began that process, it took a long time. I liked certain aspects of myself, but wasn’t much for the whole enchilada.

        It took a lot of time, patience and honesty.

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