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In the twilight

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In the twlight tonight

Your presence is receding from me

I sense your turned back

And feel great sadness

That I will

Never again

Look into your eyes

Where I am seen

Loved

And so deeply known

So tonight

If a great silence opens up within me

And all around

Can I be strong enough to accept that you are gone

Some may say that the ghostly presence of loved ones lost

Lingers on

But I believe that after 40 days and nights

Your soul finally went beyond

I cried with tears that spoke of shedding then

But nothing like the torrent that left me tonight

When I felt my body was breaking apart

And had to hold onto Jasper for comfort

Such pain I thought may take me from this earth

May have been instead

The earthly part of me accepting

You are truely gone

So now

That you are only a memory

Visions of times and experiences past

Crowd my vision

And I am

Forced to be

My own mother

For you are not coming back

So now

I must

Find new ways

To live again

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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  2. Continued tender thoughts for you in your grieving. I must say it’s beautiful what we can create from our pain. I loved the line about becoming your own mother. It makes me think of the familiar theme in fairy tales. Have you ever read the story of Vasilissa and the Baba Yaga? I like the version in Women Who Run with the Wolves. You might enjoy it. 💙

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    1. Oh god E I adore that fairytale and book. The Baba Yaga also appears in another fairytale on the dark goddess which Marion Woodman and Robert Bly talk about in the book the Maiden King. It talks about how when the dark goddess comes she is ruthless in that she leads us through great loss and pain, and how this matures us as souls. Thanks for this reminder. I will go to that book later today and re read that particular fairytale in WWRWTW…. ❤ ❤

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      1. Robert Bly! Oh I love it when we find mirrors and guides in our midst. Here are some milk and cookies for your inner child. Happy reading. 🍪🍪🍪🥛

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  4. i love how you said “the earthly part”. because yo are so right, so eloquently beautifully right, we are more than just our earthly parts. we are so much more than that, and we are never as alone as we feel we are, physically in the world. 💙💙

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    1. But I do feel loss makes us feel alone. And we feel that loss in our earthly part which is our body. Thankfully we also have the spiritual part or aspect of ourselves in and through our mind and thoughts we can find comfort but sometimes too we need and ache for the comfort of another human being presence and body. ❤

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