Dilemma

Excluded again or just ignored

My heart tightens

With sad and angry feelings

Shock waves spread

Throughout my being

But what else did I expect?

This has happened before

At the very hardest time

Judgement

Mmisunderstanding

And exclusion

Triggers a deeper wound

Left festering for years

I try to pull my reaction back

Maybe you didn’t understand

That I would love to have been included

And yet a part of me is happier at home

Alone here

In solitude

So why am I so upset

I don’t feel like I belong with you

In your world

Promises are spoken

But never materialise

And I see actions don’t back up words

And there is an emptiness

At times in our interactions

Do I withdraw

Block these friends

Dilemma

Sick of this kind of heartache

It hurts

Tenderness to this feeling

My only solution

Sore spot throbs

Just remember

To Breathe