Dont tell me
That those who suffer so deeply
And see the truth of heartbreak in this world
Where so much that we love and long for
Is either withheld or taken from us
Are sick
For I will shut my ears
I don’t want to hear it any more
These confusions
This lie
I know that in time
We must learn to accept
The deep and painful burden
That this life can so often be
For those of us who had to witness
A tearing away from
Or absence of all that was soft, tender, natural and beautiful
Knowing in our heart
How different it all could be
If love and nature
Were elevated beyond ego ideals of power and control
Of the patricarchy
Dont tell me that men are evil monsters
Doing unspeakable acts
When they were never taught to embrace or make friends with their tenderness
When it was beaten out of them with harder hearts
And iron fists
Told to toughen up
Where did they go
Two answers
Into disconnection or so called madness
Disguised suffering that society then negates
Well let us wake up
To the truth
That those who became victims of the will to power in others
Suffer
So often not knowing the truth
Their body screams silently at night
Under a cover of darkness
Dont tell me to accept
The lie of mental illness
For I just do not believe it any more
Emerging From The Dark Night 
“the lie of mental illness”…..what did you mean on this line? I feel I understood this post, except for that line.
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What I am trying to say Lee is that often (and not always) those diagnosed with mental illnesses are actually suffering emotionally that is why that term really sticks in my throat. So much focus on the ‘mind’ but not the body or heart that suffered. Does that make sense to you?
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Yes Deborah…I think you are saying that the term Mental illness carries a stigma and should not be applied to everyone with emotional/anxiety issues ?
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Yes, that is it Lee. Because then implicit in that is that a health professional say a psychiatrist is the one who can say you are mentally ill, if for example you get angry at not being seen or respected or shown empathy when really you are suffering from trauma which is a legitmate and neurobiological response to being wounded or hurt as a sensitive being (or witnessing that happen to someone else). I do think it carries a stigma that so many of us would like to be broken down.
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What a(some) of us go through. I never thought I’d ever recover from feeling suicidal. I didn’t want to speak to y friends, nor family… I was simply existing and rotting away into nothingness.
This was a great portrait of what goes on inside the brain of a mentally ill -person. Great read.
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Thanks Beckie. I just read a post from someone asking for people who suffer in this way not to have to speak about it. That made me feel really sad as though what he felt inside was not good to share. I know for myself reaching out is what helps if its to the right person. I also know being in so much distress and pain you cannot contemplate interacting with any one. I am glad if this spoke to you as I feared it may be a bit too controversial. Lots of love. Deborah
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ow are we to break the stigma, if we are supposed to be “Hush, hush?” People need to open up more, not only to help ourselves, but to educate people that don’t have mental illness to understand better.
I loved you bringing this up in this forum. Good for you! Beckie
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Thanks so much Beckie ❤
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