There’s personal anger, but underneath there’s often universal rage; and when we are possessed, God help the man who’s on the end of that.
Deep rage is not about the man. Deep rage is this :
Nobody ever saw me. Nobody ever heard me. As long as I can remember, I’ve had to perform. When I tried to be myself, I was told. That’s not what you think. That’s not what you ought to do.
So, just like my mother and her mother, I put on a false face, My life became a lie. That’s deep rage. (And an even deeper loss.)
Marion Woodman
Emerging From The Dark Night 
Reblogged this on The Struggle to Get Here and commented:
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This blog was especially raw and I identified with it. As I work through my own struggle I have come to understand the angst and anger that dwells within me. A depth that i never fathomed existed before I faced the mosters I once loved.
As I learn to protect myself, I find that even deeper than my anger, is my deep sense of grief, and with grief comes understanding. And somehow understanding makes it harder to let go and walk away from the toxicity than anger.
So I fight the urge to hold onto the anger. But anger won’t help me heal. So I walk this tight-rope over a chasm of uncertainty, not knowing how to move forward, knowing I can’t go back. Sometimes stuck in a place of static.
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I know what it is like to be unseen and be told not to do anything, ever pretty much. Maybe not to the same extent as you but boy, it does do a number on a person.
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Yes you get erased on a deeper level and then you start to feel lost but not in any way you can consciously identify. I think this post must have struck a real chord with a lot of people I want to follow on from it with another post….. It does do a number on us. ❤
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Good idea!
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I feel this so damn much!
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Me too, especially today. I could cheerfully take a flame and light it under a certain person’s bum today.
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I am right there with you! I’ll even loan you the light.
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How are you feeling about everything with your therapist lately? I am very pissed off at mine at the moment.
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Hah! Read my most recent blog, it should answer your question. Shall I read more of yours to better understand your anger? (I will read them right now anyway).
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I will check it out.
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