Loosen the knot from you hair
Hang your coat on the back of the chair
And lay yourself down
Surrender
To the place of letting go
Where being is known
Your weary body has grown thin
And your soul tired
From trying so hard
To fix and do and get
So much so that now
You long only for this
Repose in the soft homespun places of your centre
Where no more demands are laid upon you
Now you know how her aging heart felt
At the prospect of facing more pain
Unconsciously wrought by her desire
To generate life
And that one life
That ended in so much tragedy
Dogged her silently
Never absent on any day or night
As a witness you saw
But could not understand
Her hunger for rest
Until the day at the hospital where visitors descended
Like vultures
And you saw the withdrawal, fear and tiredness in her face
You retreated along the corridor
To the chapel
To cry and pray
And on one of the final nights
As you sat peacefully hand in hand
She told you
This peace is what I have always longed for
Between you and I
Your tears fell as you said only
I am so sorry
But it wasn’t your fault
The cards fell as they did
And the only choice you had
Was in how to play the hand
Dealt to you
God knows that life is strange
There are so many bends along its road
That it is impossible to see around
So now if you
Turn the wheel to the left
Ascend the stairs
Hang your coat on the back of the chair
And loosen you hair
The time to let it all go
Has come
Emerging From The Dark Night 
Wow, this brought tears to my eyes.
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Thank you Lily you must have felt the great sadness in it. Bless you. ❤
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I did. My heart aches for you. Hugs
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Thanks so much… life has been very painful especially lately. I so appreciate you. ❤
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My heart recognizes your heart. I am sorry life is painful right now. If I were there I would give you a hug. If it would make you feel better! I know not everyone likes touch. So maybe a cup of tea, or just a smile or wave. Whatever would help, though nothing can take the pain away, and I wouldn’t even try to diminish your feelings.
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Thank you so much Lily. I was at the library when we were connecting before and my alloted hour was up. I really feel your heart knowing mine, I want you to know it means so much to me and if you were here I am not averse to hugs. I dont think we ever get enough of the right kind of hugs, really. I know you have known depths of pain and aloneness as well and I feel that too. Bless you for following my blog, reaching out and opening your heart to me. Much love Deborah ❤
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Oh wow this is deep! Hugs to you and thanks for sharing 💜
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Thank you ❤
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You’re welcome
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Reblogged this on Emerging From The Dark Night and commented:
I wrote this in the thick of grieving my Mum.. reading it makes me realize this time I did process the loss, unlike the one with my father that happened so long ago and seems to have overshadowed so many of my more recent struggles.
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Glad you shared your pain. Feelings connect solely on common grounds. Region and territories have nothing to do with it. Writing gives strength. Much love to you.
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