Already

Already you are moving away from me

Along a corridor of time

With many doors

That open out onto memories

Containing glimpses of moments we shared

Already I feel you becoming farther away

But mysteriously also drawing near

At those times which were so pivotal for us both

And I am aware that I must trust

In this process of grief

Which reveals as it tears away the veil between us

How much joy there was

In togetherness moments

Where we did the simple things

Shared a meal

Crossed the street arm in arm

Watched a movie

Or held each other’s hands

And I remember at such times

You are never really lost to me

You are never really very far from me

For I carry you always

In my mind

In my heart

In my memories

And I will be forever

Dreaming you on

And drawing comfort from all of that

And from the silence you left

When you said your final goodbye.

(For Mum)