Satisfied

I wrote this post late last week sometime.  In a way it echoes in prose what I expressed today in an earlier post.  I worry about over posting my ruminations on line at times but then think what the hell.  I`ll post it.

Can you be satisfied

Even though thoughts of failure haunt you

Visiting at the most difficult times?

Can you see the beauty

Hidden at times by the torment your mind faces

Can you stop trying so hard

To live up to standards that aren’t real

No one is watching you from the shadows keeping score

And its okay to weep really

When the effort to hold it all together

Collapses or falls apart

And illusions sprung full blown from denial

Sweep the landscape clear

Reminding you

That often your mind makes up its own truth

And gets it wrong sometimes?

Can you remember although you forget

Although tears reveal it

After the struggle is done

That grief lives in your heart

Over so many things that cannot be changed

Can you remember that at times glimpses of light

Appear like bright stars

Amidst the darkness of that canvas of despair

And at those times

Can you gaze in wonder

Captured for a while by the mystery

By awe and hope

Just for today can you just let go

And stop trying so hard?

Open up and embrace

The beauty of what remains