I travel deep

I travel deep

Into wordless places

Pockets of sorrow where lie buried

Unshed tears

As a bystander

I stand on the side with knowing

Of how it is

To be alone and hurting

Often sidelined or orphaned

And I can never erase such knowing

So don’t ask me to stay on the shore

Or on solid ground

Where grief is unknown

And life is certain

When you tell me I am fragile

As if that were a problem

To me that makes me sad for you

Is it easier to hate

What you don’t understand

And can’t travel to the depth of?

To stand strong

Rather than shed defences or protections

Which would open your heart

To agony truths

If I travel deep

Perhaps it is a gift

Perhaps I am strong in my fragility

And all my cracked or broken places

Are where the light shines through

Maybe I am just a deep sea diver

Born not to live on land

All the time