Mum I needed you

Mum I needed your love I needed your time I needed your attention But you were left alone And so you left me alone So sad So sad My body cries out now With the wanting of long years I learned to suppress How can it be this simple At that time of day I remember All alone at home Arriving to an empty house Key on latch in shed in garage At least until the times it was not And then the big cut came I broke a window All in a fury For being so ‘careless’ to have forgotten to put it back  It wasn’t my fault  I should never have been left all alone Why Mum I tried to tell you three weeks ago How alone I felt You heard only an attack And then shared how lonely your childhood was But Mum couldn’t you feel my pain Or is it like my therapist says I represent to you The child you had to deny or bury or loose sight of So many years ago?  So sad So sad Mum I needed you so much Mum you just were not there  This wound that you passed on was never mine It was also yours and goes long years back