Save myself

I give and give and hope

That one day you will see my pain

And not just your own

Or some of the consequence of what you did

What will it take to get the truth through my head

You will never own it

And so, on some level it is as if the truth of who I was

And what I really felt never really existed

Today I could only cry as the naked truth hit me

Full throttle

You asked what you said or did wrong

I am too tired to say

I want to let go I really do

My deep feeling for you makes me try so hard

But nothing comes back

I find myself out in an empty field

All alone

And the only way to heal the pain and stop the hurting

Is to save myself