I let you in : Come rest in me

Pain and grief and longing

When I open the door and let you in

There is a place for you

No longer resisting

What wants to be known

You merge with my being

Until in some curious way

Feelings transform

Barricades of anger I erected

Not knowing kept out love

Come down

And I realise so much more

Than I could ever see before

Was life out to punish me?

Was everything wrong

Even though it hurt  like hell?

To suffer a yawning absence and silence

In the absence of telling and connection

Or was something far larger being played out

That had nothing to do with me

But continues to affect my life?

Was it for a reason?

A dark soul season?

Winter that fell prior to spring

Now I feel the shift

An uprising of love and recognition swells from deep within

And I ride the wave

To an open plane where my vision is clarified

I see more than I ever could before

This was not a punishment

But a learning and a birthing

Resolution of things reaching ages back

Finally coming to rest

And find a home in me