Thank you life : My prayer today

Thank you life that when I reach out, someone some where benefits too.  I love that.

Thank you life for the beauty you have that I am sometimes blind to in my saddest moments.

Thank you life for letting me realise the need I have to go deep.

Thank you life for keeping some truths and pain obscured until I am in the right place to process, feel and deal with them.

Thank you life for giving me a heart that has the capacity to go deep. Please help me to keep my voracious inner critic at bay, the critic that wants to savage my tender heart.

Thank you life for the gift of people along the way who saw me.

Thank you for my therapist Katina who is a light in my world.   A lighthouse that beams understanding when the seas around me become dangerous and choppy.

Life, help me to understand my own value.  Help me not to disparage the person that I am.  The person who is sensitive and struggles and for so long was told that it was not okay to be sensitive and to struggle. Help me to know that out of sensitivity comes deep strength. Barr the door to the nasty voices who tell me I am nothing, that my life is nothing because I have achieved nothing.  Help me to see and honour the daily achievements. The love and care I show to my dog and my family..  The way I get up and face each day even though something sinister inside wants to stop me.

Help me to recognise and understand my limits.  Help me to understand that just as much can be achieved with gentleness as with brute strength.  Help my heart to remain open and don’t let me get too lost inside a head that would stop the heart from feeling and  telling its truth, openly and honestly.