
What might it mean
To live wholeheartedly
To no longer defend
But to relax
To no longer keep saying ‘NO’
Go away
Instead
Come in
My heart is open
Even to my pain
As well as yours
And
To know its even safe to leave
If you don’t get it
Seeing that isn’t my problem
For the heart that is closed to pain
Is closed to love
And now I want to live open
In every moment
I see where loneliness took me
When I saw no other solution
And today my heart breaks a little again
Working all alone in the garden
Seeing the times that I too
Blocked and defended against love
Taking up residence here
And I am deeply sorry
For any pain I caused
Even unintentionally
There is so much love here in my heart
Just not a lot of places to share it
And I see truly
Finally
Deeply
That a live lived all alone
Without giving and receiving love
Is a barren life
Hello,
I started reading your postings only recently, while searching for the same kind of info for spouses of narcissists. You dont know me of course, but I wish you to know that I think you are brave to explore, and confront and record your feelings and pain.
Please continue to do what you have to, to help you to feel better. I find that reading your posts is helpful to me.
Thank you.
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Thank you so much for reading and commenting, Donna. It means a lot to me that you express your reaction. I am happy to know you and so very glad they help in some small way. Love Deborah
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