Gathering darkness : mistakes

Sometimes a gathering darkness grows

As inside my body I feel the discomfort

Of how it was to be met with

The nasty judgmental things you said

Sadly due to low esteem

I thought it was true

What did I do?

Maybe I deserved this?

Then inside the hurting I can not deny

As much as our culture encourages

Us to stay up beat

And often lie

But also then why take it on board

When really there is a lovelessness

Living at the root?

Some of us never knew as children

What it was to be comforted

How it felt to be held close

And treated tenderly

And then some of us also got read

The riot act

For being ourselves

Almost as if our very being

Was a threat

How then to know

The way to stay close

To other humans

And to be ourself?

Lately these days I weep for what I lost

In staying around and allowing you to hurt me

For always trying to adapt in such a way

To be pleasing

Too sad to feel how that is

For our soul and our body

So if we have to dance a crazy dance

Scream and cry and yell

When we think of it

Then let us dance

Please do anything to move

But do not consent to stay

Frozen

Or fawning

Don’t you know the truth is that your spirit

Is divine?

It is a fire

And it is not to be denied

For when we do we fall

Desperately to the ground

Eating dirt

Crying far too many tears

Uselessly wondering

Where the hell we went wrong

When the truth is

Creation does not make

Mistakes