Dissolving

When you left me

The center could not hold

Down and down I went into

And emptiness and blackness

As an anxiety arrived

That was beyond anything I could

Control

Really since then

It has not ever really left

Lately I feel myself dissolving

Disappearing

Dying

Anxiety makes me hurt my body

And a body can only take so much

Lately it feels I will not last much longer

What I long for is gone

And what remains speaks to me of Armageddon

A planet on fire

The only respite

The cool

And silence

And peace of darkness

Lately I honestly pray

To be taken soon

Lately it seems I can not bear

To face another day