I struggle with self rejection. I have noticed this today. I set myself up to help others and then let them get angry if the help is not enough. Who the fuck is helping me.. Its okay. I have to help myself. Just angry at all the fucking help I gave. Time for me to grow up and into a far stronger and healthier boundaried ego, instead of seeing my ego as the enemy. That is today’s realization. I suffer from a deeply unearned sense of self rejection.
Emerging From The Dark Night 