Loud enough?

I wish I understood

What you struggled with before

When you became hardened

And when you cut me to pieces

With your words

Now I see you are hollowed out

There is a sadness in me

So deep

How could I ever blame myself?

All I ever did was try

But always it felt

As if I was

Screaming into a void

There was a coldness in you

That turned my blood to ice

I see now

Sometimes the glaring truth

I heard the witch in you

a year ago

Saying how you hated everyone

I understand why

They were obliterating you

Little by little

I tried to put you back into your body

But you were too far gone

My hands on your tummy

Trying to help you

Breathe

And then stand

Get the fuck out of there

It was a losing battle

I see it now

I do not want to go down with this sinking ship

And still I question

Did I do enough

Did I not

Scream

Loud enough?

But the truth is I lacked the power

Or so I thought