Mmm I am beginning to connect the dots on all of this trouble with being mature in feeling due to being deep into Gabor Mate’s book on feelings denied in childhood and their relationship to trauma.. This an older grappling post from 2017 written (sadly) shortly before my mother died in December of that year.
I have been contemplating so deeply following the confrontation I had with my brother on Saturday. I know that it stirred up a lot of hurt. My brother had a very different connection with my father, they were in business together and Dad was much much younger when my brother was born, he was 24 and when I was born Dad was 41 a very old parent for the 1960s. I think my brother took on a lot of my Dad’s unresolved drives from a very impoverished childhood growing up in Holland in the 1920s and 30s. When war threatened he got out, leaving his entire family behind, and his Mum was a war widow from what I know now alone, just as my great great grandmother was in the 1890s. So its no wonder when my Mum and Dad met they instantly connected together as both lost their…
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Emerging From The Dark Night 