Aquiescence

You told me to stay silent

Not in so many words

It was the looks you gave

And also the terrifying rage

I sensed brewing inside of you

That made me lose my way

To meaning

So there was a time

When the screaming inside of me

Became so loud

And yet I could not find the words

To give a voice to deeper hurts

And so you constantly reminded me

How ugly my screaming

Made me

Now at times

As I defeat the critic

He still reminds me of the words you said

And of how painfuly close

They came to the truth

No wonder they were unbearable

And yet

It is all okay

I was suffering then

In ways

II could not fully understand

And so it seemed

Only a hurting silence

Could reprieve the tender threads

Of a withering connection

Until it frayed

Now when I hear that shouting is abuse

I understand

And yet if no one is listening

Sometimes we forget

That even the loudest sceam

Cannot tear down the wall

Someone else is building inside them self

To protect themself from facing

The gravity

Of your inner truth