When you left : Love life

When you left me

It was hard to breathe

I felt myself falling and falling

There was no reprieve

From the gathering darkness

And growing panic

That surrounded me

Now as poignant reminders

Rock my world

Silently I feel my heart breaking

Tearing open another void

And deep within it

Echoes of ancient grief calls

As wave upon wave rises

Swallowing the soil

From beneath my feet

Deep in the ocean my heart is drowning.

But the healing of growing awareness

Is also crowning

Summoning up wisdom

From deep inside the storm

For this ongoing soul journey

Is a clarion call

Whose hidden most vibrations

Attune us all

To the often misshapen nature

Of our quest for love

And so it is

Now

All of these long years hence

Awakening from deep slumber

I sense birdsong

Like the call of those doves

Who woke me from that jet lagged sleep

All of those many summers ago

My heart aches for my ancient homeland

Deep inside the marrow of my bones

As the redness of the English rose

Bleeds insight and brilliance

With a longing so strong

I must enfold my soul

Within its petals

If only for a while

As old memories like a gathering tide

Carry my aching spirit

Once again

Into the undoing

It is imperative I encircle all of this passing

Pain

With love

For divorce is not always a failure

As it leads us on

To the next important passage

Of our love life’s

Becoming