Why

Why is it so hard for me

To give to you the tender child who aches

The love protection and understanding

You need?

Why turn away in resentment and rage

And blame someone else for my

Miss takes

The many times my pointed arrow

Poison tipped

Lanced the mark

In the incorrect place?

I need to love you now

I long to love you now

No longer turn away

Leaving you vulnerable to that

Inner monster

Were they not just children too

Wounded, struggling and lost?

And so I must continue to spin

Around this polar axis

Seeking a foundation of strength

That not only lives within me

But deep within nature

For it must be true as the angels say

This all is evolution

And seeking perfection only

Takes me further and further away

From love

Understanding

And wisdom

For only by taking the risk

Of fully facing and feeling my pain

Will my soul be

Set free to truly love

My own crooked neighbour

With my own crooked heart ❤️

To depart from the lie that life

Can ever be understood

But backwards

For without love

Forgiveness and understanding

O the tangled path we take

Can we ever find the necessary

Vulnerability and courage

To heal our wounded places

And foster from deep within

The hurting spaces

A pathway leading our soul

Back to love