(desperately) unconditionally

I was desperate for myself to love me

And to accept myself as I was

Sadly I lost my way

And I came to think

Redemption lay

In you loving and accepting me

That was in the end

A problematic game

Because to be loved I thought

I had to meet all of your needs

And turn a blind eye most of the time

To when that not only wounded me

But also led me so very far astray

From myself

Now I know I will be okay

If I can just trust myself to know

What is best for me

Because sadly my parents led me to doubt

Everything about the fundamental truth

Of who I was

And what my being

True Self and Soul

Desperately longed for

Yes,

I longed so deeply for their love

I was willing to give most of everything

And that was never wrong

Because a child always loves

Its parents

Unconditionally

But it was only a step on the way to true healing

And that came the day

I started to take myself

My needs and true feelings

Seriously