Longing

You were just a young and innocent child

Wide eyed with wonder

Filled to the brim with life

Longing to dance

To feel

To reach out

To love and be loved

But the world you came into was dark

Full of adults with troubled faces

And contracted bodies

Striving to build a safe and solid places

So far from the fear danger

And threats of their past

How could you understand

The great emptiness your soul met

And the great emptiness your spirit fell into?

Do not talk to me about the frenzied dances of our youth

That hid the painful truth

Still I understand

But could the chemical ecstasy or any other drug

Open our hearts to the lost love,

The hidden heaven

We sought buried deep within our own cells

The joyous, exhuberent, full expression

Of our lively being?

Didn’t those chemicals just do

Our forming brains more damage

Not to mention the heavy cost

To our heart?

Now when I see this wild animal being’s

Vibrant instinctual energy

So full of love and enthusiasm

Full to the brim with boundless life

Running and playing

Jumping and pumping with longing to express

And connect

Heart to heart

Soul to joy

I feel I must suppress somehow or contain

How sad for me

What have I become?

In this world of coldness

Where as adults we turn away from those

Deeply buried longings

And instincts in our heart

How can most of modern life not begin to feel

Intensely isolated, lonely

Cold and dark?

So learn your lessons well

Swallow them down deep inside of you

As you seek the healing radiant light of your soul

Deep inside the quiet

Until that pregnant stillness

Is full of dancing

Let this human longing for the real

And radiant touch

Of solar fire inside your energy body

Burn brightly

Before your soul grows

Contracted, cold and dark

With all of this deeply suppressed

Life energy

And longing