until the time of return

Desperately I tried to be

Seen by you

Deeply I held inside my heart

All of the vast heaving oceans

Of this ancestral pain

Only lately am I coming to understand

When you say

Chiron is about the outsider

This makes so much sense

Of we the designated carrier

Get sent into the wilderness

With ‘sins’ of the mothers and fathers

Upon our heads

And yet the goat is a lively creature

Whose principle feature

Is to live so close to the earth

And to the mother Goddess

And so it is at night

Alone in this vast ancient wilderness

I dance

In that dream

Before we left

The whole ground bled

When we decided to return

To those ancestral lands

And I understand now

What that dream of the slaughtered cows meant

(Saturn in Taurus where Uranus now lives)

There was a grief I felt then

And it was not just mine

Then there was the crushing blow

As ancestral fate decreed the direction

I must travel

That is why since taking that massive hit

Around 5 and 8 I spiral

Around this

The ancestral caduceus

No one will understand

But I do now

Late at night I hear your voices on the wind

Saying do not give up

Continue to live

Because even though you know the wilderness

That is where you must live

Until the last tear has been shed

Until the time of return

Until the time of return