Lost for words

Today I cried

Speech departed

My being smarted with so much pain

As those difficult tearings claimed

All of the available psychic space

I sense with this breath of autumn

Old ghosts hovering in the shadows

While another part of me screams

Let me go

If only it would

Let me go

This ache

Sometimes it seems I am swallowed in the past

While I long for freedom

And to trust

And then once again

Words and my very breath

Fail me

But still today you met me there

Silently

Deep inside in that place of hurting

As I paced the drive

Feeling lanced by dark dark body memories

You did not leave me alone

You did not let me go

Thank God for that

And even though we never spoke

I felt the love

I sensed the love

I breathed in all of the love

Presented to me

Within the healing gift

Of your presence