Mysterious

It has been a strange week, the energies have been all over the place I guess its the current watery influence and as soon as the Sun moved into Pisces we started to get signs of rain and then a deluge last night..Jasper has also been acting in a strange way, he was seeking shelter under the car yesterday, I was stressed considering what to do about ongoing therapy, lately going back into the hard and tough things just seems to derail me from present time, that said I have next to no local connections at all, everyone I seem to be close to lately is on line, I am noticing I am not like other people, I do not have close family and friends to call on that are on a similar wavelength. I am just longing for nature too. Later on I found him outside reluctant to come in and when he did his entire body was shaking.. It seemed to pass after a time but he seems to be very under the weather at present.

I had such a difficult night I had a bath and my whole body went haywire, I ended up sleeping the opposite way around and then woke about 2 am very disoriented, getting going took time but Jasper and I got out for a good long walk before logging onto any technology, I just feel that I need to be having my feet on earth, so much goes on in my head and around my heart that is difficult to get oriented, I seem to be moving on so many different time lines.. Add to this that the groomer was due to come today and Jasper is not in good shape around his left hip, he seems to be having trouble climbing into the car and onto the sofa at night time, he then took refuge when we got home in a spot in the garden close to green foliage so I just trust him to do what he needs to do for himself and I cancelled the groomer.

Lately I feel simplifying my life is a far better way to go.. I never ever felt like I fitted into the mainstream so it is not good for me to feel sad when I do not make connections with certain people not on my wavelength.. I am lately feeling the need to honor that and not try as hard.. I also think lately fake men have been approaching me on Facebook I was conversing with someone who wanted to take it onto another platform and then when I refused his profile disappeared.. I am too open and some may say gullible at times. I let suspect people into my life it really is a time lately for me to be more discriminating and savvy. To guard my own precious treasure.. Maybe this is the current lesson of both Venus and Mars now inching even closer to transiting Pluto.. I did not value myself in the past enough and so I gave myself away.. I did not appreciate my gifts or good qualities.. That really needs to change for me lately, all of the naiveity of those Neptune squares in my chart badly need a good dose of ‘reality’. This does not mean I have to lose touch with the transcendent or mystical though.

So much that happens in life is a mystery.. We try our best to figure it out and then we hit roadblocks but often those roadblocks make some kind of sense if you see things from a more long range perspective. That is one of the most powerful Venus Mars Pluto lessons, to keep opening up to our Higher Power’s will for us.

Yesterday someone shared this lovely prayer from AA I am going to close today’s post with it.. It talks of learning to turn our will over in a positive way, and this also means staying closer to both our intuitive knowing and our heart. Not allowing our minds to be so enslaved or fooled by toxic excessively ego based overthinking.

God, direct my thinking for today so that it can be free from self pity, dishonesty, self will, self seeking and fear.

God, inspire my thinking, decisions, and intuition. Help me to relax and take it easy.. Free me from doubt and indecision.

Guide me through this day and show me my next step.

God, show me what I need to do to take care of any problems.

I ask all of these things that I may be of maximum service to you and my fellow humans. In the spirit of the steps, I pray.