Depression is something we project, I am certain of this now.. Even when difficult circumstances surround us I sense there may be a level on which we can be free, where all is well, but finding the strength and freedom and serenity implicit within this perspective perhaps depends upon us knowing that innerfeelings and outer circumstances are not the whole of things..
I am grateful to live a quieter life where in I do not have to subscribe to collective ideas, prohibitions and fears, that said I take my mask where ever I go these days so as not to upset some people, after getting screamed at in the bookshop by a man last weekend I just thought trying to hold my own ground in some situations is not worth the stress. That may be seen as manipulating or fawning by some but to me its just trying to keep things calmer for everyone concerned..
Maybe there is a time not to scream about things, just a time to take quiet action while respecting other’s rights to their own fears, foibles, insecurities and points of view.. I love the slogan Live and Let Live from AA. I can let someone have their particular take on reality and I do not have to change my views just because they threaten someone else.. That said sometimes for the sake of peace I will just do the kind thing, as long as its not going to hurt me or the welfare of anyone else I love.
Emerging From The Dark Night 