The way I see things

Lately the way I see things is changing.. It is almost as if time has removed a heavy burden from my heart and over past months loving authentic connections have lit a spark of peace inside of me and somehow changed those deep feelings of abandonment and isolation I used to carry.

Sometimes now I look back to the way I was fighting to come out of a prison plus the trance of shame that I adopted or came to mistakenly take on, from not always being that well received and seen in many ways I learned to disconnect from myself. Therapy has helped me a lot and hearing today that we often learn to take refuge in our heads and abandon the feelings held in our body due to the things we go through in childhood makes great sense to me. Now it seems there is a way to be free and to realize really its not really all that scary being me and taking the risk to set those feelings free.

Today a good friend said to me, one of the loveliest things:..

“Don’t you ever change.” .

How beautiful now to be seen known and loved for my true self, how blessed for me now to be so so far along this meandering path of recovery.