This important post by blogger Benny K tells how it can be for us to witness a loved one try to take their life in a deliberate attempt or by a longer painful slower self destruct. Told by someone with long term sobriety who fronts up to be there and is strong enough to hold with the deep complexity and paradox of this challenging and so difficult to understand situation in which drugs are just the symptom of a far deeper inner soul despair or disconnection.