Out of the spiral

Out of the spiral

Your voice and pain calls to me

Asking me to recognise

What happened

Pleading to me that

All of this suffering

Will not be in vain

There was a darkness you had to bear

It was the heaviest of weights

And you had no help at all

All you could do was walk forward

Bearing that load

Into the storm

Until at times

You became the storm

I am so deeply sorry

For what happened to you

The ending of it all

Will not come

Until the terrible energies

Are untangled

And unraveled

What will it heal

If I blame you

For

Wounds you bore

And acted out unconsciously?

This pain and absence and fear

Bequeathed to me by fate

What will bring the resolution

Or ending of the hurting

Will this not only come

When we surrender all of this pain we carry

To the transforming fires

Of containment and love

As our souls undergo this unravelling

Sucked again into to the spiral

Where we feel you

And free our souls

From this all of this

Deep pain

You bore

To sow new seeds

Of compassion, understanding

And joy