There is a belief that two opposing energies can dominate our consciousness at any time, fear or love..There is also a powerful quote attributed to spiritual teacher Marianne Williamson “fear is what we learn here, while love is what we are made of”.. Sadly when young we are one of the few mammals that are completely dependent on the love we receive from caregivers, many other mammals can walk or swim but we cannot and at the beginning we are osmotic sponges in many ways.. We do come in without a soul though, that is something I deeply believe in. Some believe this soul went through many different experiences and even chose to incarnate on our planet at this particularly significant time in human and earthly planetary history.. In fact I was just listening to a talk and channeled messages given by energy intuitive Lee Harris in which he spoke about both of these things, during the channeled part of his talk, his guides the Zs also made some mention of how the fear based separatist ego can operate to block loving interconnection and soul growth.
Sadly our ego can even turn against our very soul and self, the inner critic or hostile Super Ego loves to put us down, tell us where we are going wrong, may try to protect us from ‘harm’ even based on past experiences. Not all of our ego is negative, in its positive aspects it can be useful and protective especially for ‘sensitives’. In fact in one of the chapters in her book Sensitive Is The New Strong Anita Moorjani speaks in depth about how often in having our ego devalued by others who lead us to believe there is something innately ‘wrong’ with us or something that needs to be improved or bettered in line with serving the ‘correcting’ persons own ego agenda we all too easily wind up becoming disempowered and losing trust in our own intuitive knowing as well as our implicit sense of inner power and self value.. So often we are taught by conditioning either to look outside of the Self or give that power away.
When I think of intuition, I also think of Jesus.. Jesus, I believe came to teach us that we did not need any human intermediary to help us be more i touch with divine consciousness/God/Goddess or our higher self.. Many people did not like this message and believed it was heretical.. And I am not even sure if Jesus believed a man made church was even a place where we could experience ourselves to be most in touch, since so often when he preached he did so out in nature.
As I look back I can clearly see where my ego operating in unhealthy ways tried to keep me separate and in fear of others as well as how the negative force inside tried to put me down.. In fact often in the mornings the angels will put a song into my mind that has a message for me. Today it was The Pet Shop Boy’s song from the 1980s “its a sin” the lyrics talk about coming to believe everything inside of us is wrong my angels then guided my attention back to a very helpful book recommended to me by astrologer Melanie Reinhardt after my head injury in 2005 called A Soul Without Shame. This book is all about overcoming the negative inner life denying critical toxic shame force
Lee reminds us in this talk of the power we have to effect change when we lead from a power of love, rather than attack, ‘teaching’ or criticism.. It is also implicitly understood in psychology now that the most toxic end of the spectrum when it comes to narcissism comes about when someone believes themselves to be innately superior and to have the divine right of power OVER others, rather than reaching out to understand another from the basis of humility, open mindedness, open heartedness and curiosity.
I have just signed up for Lee’s course on initiation commencing on 28th October which will be given over one month in the form of four 75 minute teachings from his guides.. This work speaks to my soul so much. in fact I cry at lot listening to Lee and his guides, my soul recognizes something deeply true and wise in the teachings of the Zs, as a sensitive growing up in the 1960s, and 1970s I was not taught to value this part of myself at all.. I have shared a lot in my blog about how I got lost especially in the 1980s as the trauma of what I carried epigenetically as well as witnessed in my family played out and I struggled to come to grips with my own soul path. Lately that knowing of how and why it all happened is growing stronger in me.
Possibly I incarnated in my family to learn and grow through observation and then 7 years and 10 months ago I was led to start this blog under the name emerging from the dark night which came to me when told to me by my own guides back in 2005.. It helps to know Lee is out there and that others trust in these times so much positive that we can find to share and explore.. Are we not here to find ways to reach out, empower, share with, learn and open our hearts and minds to those of others.. this, for me, is most of all what I most long for. And the word that came to mind when the Zs asked through Lee what it was I most needed more of in my life right now was trust.. Trust also seems to me to be one of the powerful fear antidotes..along with love and the ability to keep my own heart and soul open and available for learning and connection.
Lee’s talk and channeled messages can be found below.
Emerging From The Dark Night 