Fear plays a big part in our lives but I am not sure we are always aware that it may be fear driving us to react in a certain way.. Much fear will preserve our lives, fear of burning our hand will make sure we are careful not to hold it over an open flame, for example, but then there are the manifold fears over things that will cause us pain which are just a natural part of what it means to be human and may need to be approached and faced or incorporated before we can grow.
I am thinking about this issue of fear while watching the movie Supernova about a loving gay couple one of whom is suffering from dementia and the impact this has both on him and his partner (soon to be carer).. The fear of putting another person through that kind of pain makes him want to end his life, of his own volition, his partner does not see it as a burden but as an act of love to care but in a very moving scene admits to being terrified.. Its an honest interchange with someone owning how they feel, tears are shed and honesty is happening, even amidst the conflict between them.
The issue of conflict (two sets of wills or desires opposing) is a Mars issue, Libra rules relationships and often as a peace loving sign Librans or those with a strong Venus or Neptune may find conflict difficult and yet it is a part of life.. We may try to run from pain and conflict as a part of being human and vulnerable. We may feel a lot of fear and not know how to cope with it.. but to have the honest exchange speaks of a dialogue at least, even if it is one that has no ideal resolution for either party..
I think too, while writing this, of the many times conflict with someone made them or I run, in some cases a partner used that distance as a kind of punishing silence and then would return with ultimatums, there was rarely, in that last relationship, an opportunity for him to allow me to be me and be different. Maybe I did the same to him sometimes. Many of those conflicts bought up so much fear of abandonment for me.. and perhaps that too, is what the character Sam is struggling with in this movie, but at least he taking it on the chin.. something that inspires me..
His partner’s dementia, in this situation, comes under the list of things he cannot control or change, only his decisions over how he will react and act out of his complex feelings to and about it are under a little bit of control for Sam.. Fear will often face us with things outside of our control and then we may struggle to find some kind of control, but it may be a time to mindful of how we react in that way as Mars in Libra meets the Sun and both come to a face off with Pluto over the next few weeks.. Our will may be thwarted, there may be things we have to face but do not want to. How we react in the face of these things will be having an impact over the levels of peace or disturbance we may be feeling as Mars and Pluto go into dialogue and conflict in the build up to this tense configuration.
Emerging From The Dark Night 