This video by Ross Rosenberg clearly explains the pain underlying the denial those of us who were not nurtured or loved in childhood had to put in place to stop us experiencing a shattering reality of overwhelming feelings we could neither bare nor contain as young ones.. It turned so many lights on for me, because lately my own dissociation is breaking down. I have to feel those feelings, now as an adult, and that is the only way out, for to keep lying to ourselves only ends up keeping us in prison, but for this we REALLY DO NEED HELP, that is something he also clearly explains in this video. He also explains how we beat up on ourselves and how we get punished too, for trying to address the issue with people also in denial.
Emerging From The Dark Night 