Barricades (unconditional love)

Behind these barricades

I lose the way to love

Even as I secretly long for it

Sometime I forget

That the strength of this prison wall

Is just something created inside of my head

Fed on stories of past suffering

I tell myself like incantations

But new life and promise

Is always there

Hoping that I will awaken from this

Trauma dream

Did I sleep too long

Pulled down by a force

Tumbled around in emotion

All tangled up

In this tapestry of loss?

There is an open field where love lives

And I long to embrace it

There was a time I did not know how to open

So sadly I kept myself closed up and isolated

But lately my heart does taste

Sometimes

This fleeting glimpse

Of something bright and warm

And soul nurturing

That feels a lot like

The healing balm

Of unconditional love