carried me : resurrection

somehow you carried me

through all of those dark years

somehow you were there

even in the most painful of times

reminding me it was no sin to feel

even as those surrounding me

tried to keep my feelings down

somehow you helped me to find someone

who would understand

someone who would help me bear with

this great sadness

lately I see how far it extends backwards in time

and how powerless we all were

over so much

but now after having spun

around the axis of the years

so many times

maybe I am finally beginning to rise above

and then I remember both how pivotal

and painful the coming of June was

to see a sister so shattered

so broken

so completely abandoned

was only the start

to feel it happen inside my own life and heart

well there are no words to fully describe

the tearing apart

and yet these are the circumstances fate decreed

my soul must live

what good will it do to fight against the truth

there is a part of us that can bear it

I believe this now

there is a part of us far more eternal

that knows the how and why of it

and when we cease arguing

and then surrender

maybe that is when the magic starts

if June was for me before

both the birthing

and the shattering

as well as the nearly dying

then

maybe soon in coming years

it will come to be

for me

my month of

resurrection