My anxiety level is acute today.. I really felt the shift retrograde (backwards) of Saturn on around the 28th of May, we also had a lunar eclipse this week and when the moon is hidden it also becomes strong.. a lot of old emotional response patterns get shown up and we may begin to get insights as the moon grows smaller over the next 10 days or so into things that need to be let go of or changed. We may also find we begin to experience shifts of perspective due to seeing how certain attitudes or reactions or modes of communication do or do not work well for us. A New Moon eclipse follows the lunar and that signifies a new start and with it being in Gemini with both Venus and Mercury there we may also get insights into our own or other’s shadows or capacity for duality.. .
Bear in mind that Saturn in Aquarius has been squaring Uranus in Taurus over quiet a few months now and it passed out of the separating waning square to Uranus a short while back.. so pressure may have eased a bit.. but with Saturn’s backward movement pressure may start to build again until the second square on June 14. Saturn will force Uranus to ground in some way and as a very rebellious and at times heady energy Uranus is not that comfortable with being contained at all… It may turn explosive : one of my favorite bowls just shattered into about a dozen pieces last night when it jumped off the dish rack onto the kitchen floor when I was not paying enough attention and washing up too quickly and not at all mindfully. Despite hearing voices in my head telling me to be more mindful!!
I just took the attitude of “what is broken is broken” and did not let myself indulge in any self pity that may be one of my major lessons right now.. With things being so tough of a number of levels with both my sister and Scott there is absolutely nothing to be gained by wishing things were different.. I also see where I tend to drive myself a bit crazy with my own thinking..
Mercury in Gemini too is now retrograde and it turned retrograde yesterday only a few days out from Saturn.. higher anxiety often accompanies the turn of Mercury backwards.
Mercury retrogrades always make us feel restless, like we’re not ticking the boxes off our to-do lists fast enough. But while the Planet of Communication is in retrograde, it’s more important than ever to stop and smell the roses. “In the fast-paced world we live in, it can feel like a punishment to have to slow down but, truthfully, it can be a blessing,” Murphy says. “It offers us an opportunity to tidy up, chill out, and get crystal clear on exactly what you need to do to further align with your truth.” It’ll be rocky, sure — but it’s nothing we can’t get through.
Excerpt from Mercury Retrograde article linked below
The three week retrograde period is a time when it is better to resist the urge to run around doing to much or taking on new projects and far better to turn back within and deal with putting things in order that need to be attended to or sorted out inwardly or in our practical lives. There maybe less communication now and more inward introspection..
In a curious manifestation of Mercury retrograde I got a second flat battery while down at the lake in the car reading my new book on the Ravenmaster and then chatting to Scott via next. Luckily I did not have to wait long for help to jump start it, and I ended up buying a battery charger for the car from Roadside Assist. I had been warned that the battery was getting depleted a few weeks ago and that I needed to drop it in at the garage overnight to get it charged or for the day and at the moment I really need my car having had to do all that running around for my sister…. I got a crash course on using the charger from the guy and last night got the car fully charged up.. I felt proud of myself and glad I had at least been proactive in getting my own power source, instead of outsourcing it.. That seems to be the lesson at the moment with someone begging and pleading with me to send yet more money, money I am really feeling the need to stop people pleasing, even if they get pissed off cause at this stage I need to take care of my own life Yet with so many planets in Aquarius in my seventh house of relationships even that impulse often gets derailed as I think I spend too much time alone sometimes (Uranus and Pluto in the first).. My thinking (and dream life) has been a bit all over the shop lately but I do feel an urge to be stronger in my boundaries consolidating now that Saturn is smack bang on the square to natal Neptune..
Interesting to me to see to, how my own anxiety settles down when I can just sit still for a while.. today I have already been up and out to the markets and supermarket to get food, I made lunch then had a clean through the kitchen utensils draw as well as the fridge.. I dusted off the dining room coffee table and am going to oil the wooden top a little later on. I have the feeling at the moment with Mars still deep in the 12th house in Cancer being at home and nesting is the very best use of this energy.. When I am out and about I do enjoy it but I feel so much better when I get back home and can just be a homebody and at the same time do things to enhance my own environment.
Mercury stays retrograde until June 22 and Saturn does not move direct until October 22, 2021.. you can read about both below by following the links to articles.. Its interesting to me too that on nearly exactly the day Saturn stationed direct here in Australia the southern state of Victoria announced yet another lock down to outbreaks of Covid 19.. Saturn in Aquarius relates to restrictions around friendliness and social gatherings, it forces isolation and separation of connections, I have noticed its movements in relation to Covid outbreaks are very significant.
Best use of both retrogrades are to do some inner soul searching and take steps to see what is working in terms of relationships and relating.. both retrogrades take place in air signs so they have to do with relationships, movement and interpersonal interchanges.. I have read on one site that karmic relationships may come and go during the next five months of Saturn retrograde, but much depends upon what aspects it makes to person planets in you chart.. Those with the planets in the fixed signs of Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius between 5 and 20 degrees are most likely to be affected.
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https://www.astrology.com/article/saturn-retrograde-2021/
https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/2021/05/10497427/mercury-retrograde-gemini-meaning-effects-may-2021
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