In this sea of spaciousness I swim
After negotiating the minefield of early morning awakening
Deep inside the silence I rest
Waiting on the breath of mystery to breathe me
There is more to me than all of these feelings and thoughts
Which come and go and rise and fall
And sometimes lately I only feel the reality of myself
Appearing when everything else I thought was me passes on
I long for only this peace
After what seems years of tumultousness
Trying to resurface and come alive
In this wild sea caused by the waves of everybody else
Today the Sun stays hiding
Behind the clouds of fog
Sometimes it is more difficult to feel the love
On the darker days and yet I know
I must seek my warmth within
Lost no longer
Longing no longer for you
What am I to do
If I walk away from this?
Just be?
Just breathe?
Last week it seemed to me that anger and rage
Was all that was left
But even those had to go
For really who else could really care less?
Does it even matter any more?
Alone with god and by dog
I just seek the whatever moment of comfort I can
Floating at rest
In the healing of flow
The divine openness
Of spaciousness
Emerging From The Dark Night 