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Lost

Sometime I feel myself to be so lost

Surrendering my own knowing I look outside

And forget that other lives are not my own

Sometimes there is a hurting deep inside

About how you clipped my wings

Did not allow me to fly

And yet then there is also this concern

Who is really to be blamed now?

There are so many times there seems no place to turn

And that is when I must turn within

Sometimes I actually have no idea

What on earth I am doing here

And why I sang all of the songs I did about my life

Not seeing where the true power lay

And when the tune was ‘off’

For each and every day

I was creating my own limitations

With my own limited thoughts

And a very small and shrunken part of me

Dared not ask for more

Or dared not to hope my own dreams

Could really become

Reality

Best I feel lately

Is closest to home

For what real purpose

Did all of that restless roaming serve?

Why was it so hard for me to admit

I needed you?

Why is it so hard sometimes to allow you

To need me?

Maybe the answer is really closer than I know

Maybe the secret is really hidden deep inside my own heart

Maybe sometimes I lose my way

By looking outside

Because lately it seems whenever I do

My soul comes up empty

And empty is a place

I no longer really wish to live

Anymore

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"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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  2. Sounds as though you’re, still, enmeshed by your pasts, i was too from a long time ago, but then, i’d, realized, that i was, NOT responsible for ANYBODY else’s feelings and emotions, that i don’t need to take responsibilities for how everybody else feels around me, and, it took me away, to separate myself from the feelings that aren’t mine to begin with, and if i’d done it, so can you too! Just keep on digging deep to the core of what you’re about inside by the day, get to know your self inside and out.

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