choosing to stay

I know this ache is not the whole of it

But some days my entire being shakes

With this old grief

And with a hundred memories

Of how love came for a time

Only to leave

As there were so many things I did

In trying to be me

That seemed to push lovers away

Some say

The real one will stay

He will see far deeper into your heart and soul

And even if when you meet you are not yet

Fully whole

With him you will not seek completion

Only understanding and sharing

I ache for this

I long for this

I hope for this

(Is this hope in vain?)

Someone who understands the depths of my struggle and pain

And chooses to stay

Anyway