Weep for you

Weep for you

What else can I do

Had enough of being brave

Or being a slave to reason

Even if so much of this still makes some kind of sense

I have seen you fall and rise

So many times

But this time I feel the tiredness that runs

Bone deep

I ache for you to be shown love

Not given drugs

The deep disconnect I feel in that place

Makes me feel so hollowed out

Disconsolate

This is so far beyond me

I truly do not know what to do

And when I think of all the challenges we had

Of how hard you were

Now to see this still breaks my heart

But I

Have grown tired of crying

And yet

Tears still seem the truest thing

To express what is going down

Because truly

At this moment

Words and intelligence fail me