The weight of it

There are ways to be free

Within the loving radius of your own company

Sometimes it just gets so hard to see

The way this inner sense of lack translates

And so we lose our peace with this

The fulfilling feeling of our body simply

Being alive

Moving and breathing

There was a time I longed for you

In a way I can no longer do

In the end you put me through far too much

And even though I know it was all for my learning

It is hard to forgive or forget

The endless pressure you kept using

To bend me to your will

And how all I did was collapse my self

Under the weight of it