Turning

There was a time I turned away from love

Not even knowing all the ways

I shut it down

Not ever hoping for you

To see the me I truly was

For a while only these

Opaque mirrors surrounded me

In endlessly overcrowded rooms

As I sunk inside

Drowning in the pain of a thousand lies

Lost and so alone

Abandoned miles and miles from home

There was this ache I held

So close to me

It was my comforter

In the end

Until one day I grew so strong

From all of this twisting and turning

I was no longer

Even able to feel how painful the climb to living

Really was

How soul destroying

To have given up so completely

On inner love

But now that I see the path I trod

Light is returning

Sometimes I feel it surrounding me

Bequeathing such a state of inner

Peace and calm

So now I turn towards life

And living

I stop all of this over thinking

Drinking from a dark glass

Of never ending suffering

And as I open my heart

I pray to God

And with the praying

And surrendering

Come to peace

And feelings of utter safety

Within this state

Of outward turning