The Book of Proverbs

I wrote this piece a month ago.

I settled myself off to sleep last night listening to a You Tube video on rest and the Bible.. it was such a calming thing to do and the soothing gentle intonation of the reader’s voice just kept reminding me over and over that I am held by God and held in love most esoecially when I open to the breath and allow that peace and grace to flow into my body and heart. I literally felt stress energy being pushed out of my body as it relaxed to the words and quotes from the Bible…

One quote particularly appealed to me.. it was from the Book of Proverbs so today I went to the local Catholic bookshop and got a beautiful book on Proverbs, mostly the writer shares about wisdom and letting ourselves open to the mystery of all of that silent healing power that surrounds us when we tune in and most especially to nature.

To be honest I don’t like mass. I hated certain aspects of my Catholic education. Both of my sisters and my Mum were abused by the Nuns but lately I am finding that sense of a loving higher power surrounding me, most especially in nature.. I know as an empath my primary connection must be to the natural world..often in nature I hear the voice of spirit. I talk to the trees and the birds.. I need to get my bare feet on the earth or sit on the grass at least once a day.. I cannot get to caught up in man made things and technology alone. I find technology works well for me if I limit it to certain windows and make sure I am active in the world and in my body (instead of just in my head and thoughts) for a certain period each day. .

Finding this new balance is taking time.. As I make friends with more of my feelings and stay away from humans that aren’t in tune I feel far better and I thank God for an animal companion..

This week in Australia it was revealed that a woman was raped by a now Member of Parliament 33 years ago and she ended up taking her life recently. The man is going to walk scott free. Our Prime Minister is not even going to see the man us held to account. These recent rape revelations are always prefaced by the word ‘alleged’ and we all know a woman accusing a man of this is bound to have her character and morals questioned. I actually cried hearing she had taken her life on Sunday. I have been raped while drunk..there was no way I would have claimed abuse partly I felt it was my fault allowing myself to be vulnerable and drunk. Its a dark secret I kept for many years in sobriety.

These days I can weep at what humans do to other humans but nature and animals no they just stay pure..they kill to eat but they do not abuse just to hurt others. This is when I seek my soothing in nature, nurture and gentleness reading through the Book of Proverbs this is what I sense in every word. A place of soul rest and wisdom.

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